Last night was reality night. I am addicted to reality tv. Michael usually stays in the office on the computer while I watch an hour of American Idol or Big Brother. Last night, I saw BB was on, so I of course watched the eviction(usually I wait till the next day to watch, as it is important I watch my other shows for the upcoming recap with my bro). Anyway..I forgot The Moment of Truth also came on before American Idol, so I watched AI, and then was turning on Moment of Truth. (yes, we’re talking 3 hours of shit.)
As I’m turning on the last show, Michael comes out & asks if any new Law & Order was recorded. I looked and told him no. I asked if he’d like to come out & sit with me on the sofa(“you can use my laptop while I watch”). He just walked away. ‘Screw you’, I thought.
About 3 mins into this show I get up to go pee. As I’m passing by the office, I see Porn on the computer! What the fuckity fuck??? He notices me & quickly closes the window. I get out of the bathroom, shout “If you’re done jerking off in there, fine, come pick a show to watch!”
I stewed the rest of the evening. He kept offering me a sinus rub ( I have a sinus infection- yuck), and I poutily declined. I mean, I’m by no means conservative. I think pornography is fun. I enjoy a good movie with my hubby(except the ones with girls that spit and gag on cock- that is such a turnoff) TMI? Probably, but just so you realize I’m not a total freak. So, as I was saying, perhaps I shouldn’t have been mad, but this is a guy who’s told me he hasn’t masturbated since he met me, and told me he never watches porn without me. He knows I do & is cool with it (cuz it means he’s off the hook some days). If the situation was reversed, and I was one of those chicks who didn’t put out all the time, I could understand him watching dirty movies alone, but I’m not- so it just made me feel insecure & unattractive.(especially after that dream last week!!)
He apologized later & did his best to make it up to me. Am I being too harsh? What are your thoughts on this? Are you cool with your spouse/significant other watching porn? Do you do it without your significant other?
